I’ve
never been what you’d call a wilderness explorer or nature lover. Yeah I’ve always loved looking at oceans,
lakes, and rivers since I grew up in Maine.
But that’s about it.
The
Saco River near North Conway, NH, insanely beautiful and insanely cold!
But
recently that’s all changed. Lately I
cannot seem to get enough of the outdoors.
I want to go for hikes, sit by water, and lay in brightly colored leaves
that have fallen.
Adorable
yard in Freeport Maine. I mean who doesn’t
want to sit there with a book and a cup of coffee!?!?
And
it hit me the other day as I was watching the cheesiest Christmas romance movie
you can find (don’t judge) that it’s because I know God is wooing me through
all this.
It’s
been a rough couple of months to be honest.
Things I knew and trusted disappeared.
Thoughts of love and joy were replaced with loneliness and bitterness. But through it all I knew that God was
there. He loved me and was comforting
me. I was expecting Him to ease my pain
during the tough days. And because I was
living with this expectation I saw His gifts and declarations of love
everywhere I went.
I
heard Him say He created me with a beauty that shines brighter than the
changing leaves I saw shining through the rain near Sebago Lake.
I
heard Him say that His love for me is so much bigger than the sky that seemed
to go on forever as I looked across the marsh in Old Orchard Beach.
I
heard Him say I will never understand the height or depth or width of His love
for me and that I should just enjoy it and rest in it as I stopped for a minute
on the side of the road in the middle of nowhere Maine.
And the other crazy part? In all of these places there was such a light beautiful breeze. Not a heavy wind or awful lack of. Just the perfect breeze. I could literally feel the whisphers of God in those moments.
And
as I heard these things I wanted more of it.
I wanted to see more of His beauty and His creation. I wanted to be wooed more.
And
it got me thinking about how much I’ve lost the expectation of God moving in
other ways. And wondering how amazed I
would be if I could expand my expectation to all areas of my life.
What would I see if I daily
expected God to do miraculous things?
What would I hear if I expected
God to speak to me every time I read Scripture, sat in His presence, worshiped?
What would I experience if I
expected God to direct my daily steps.
I
want it. I want it all. As God has been overwhelming me with His
love, I want to be overwhelmed by it all.