Exhausted....

If I had to pick one word to describe my most consistent feeling it would be exhausted.  I'm only teaching two class one at 9:05 and the other at 11:30 on M/W/F and yet I just feel like a go, go, go all day everyday!  I know it's because it's the beginning of the year and trying to get everything settled and on a schedule but I'm not sure how much longer I can keep going before I just plain fall over.  It also doesn't help that this week is Welcome Week and as the SGA adviser I have to go to their events and last night there was a harbor cruise and I was a driver.  I didn't get to my bed until 3:15am and then I had to teach at 9:05, I kind of  hate my life today!

And it has finally happened...there was dancing at an ENC event!!!!  Ok, it wasn't planned or organized it just happened.  And this could have been the opportunity for the students to show administration that they can handle dancing.  That dancing doesn't always lead to sex and that you won't burst into flames and be sent instantly into the pits of hell for dancing.  This could have been great.  Unfortunately the administration is kind of right.  Students are unable to just dance and have a good time without turning into these crazy, repressed now coming out, sexual beasts.  It started off innocent enough just a few people on the dance floor doing some fun little spins, lots of space between guys and girls and really light mood.  And then all of a sudden "Dollar, Dollar Bills" (I'm unsure if that's the actual title) came on and it turn instantly into a seedy Boston club.  There was butt smacking, gyrating, grinding, droppin it like it's hot and a whole host of other completely inappropriate, un-ENC motions.  We we quickly killed that music and then only played oldies and songs that have group dances (Cotton Eye Joe, Macarena, Cha Cha Slide, etc.)  and students danced the rest of the night away in a much more ENC friendly way...if you can have ENC friendly dancing...

New, Scary and Exciting!

So I've got some exciting news....

I'm teaching a class this fall! Actually I'm teaching two classes this fall. It's the same class but two different sections. It's called Reading for College and it's a developmental freshman class. On M/W/F I have 14 freshman from 905-1010am and T/TH I have 11 freshman from 8-915am. That's so early! I've gotten used to coming into the office at 10 every day!

I'm so excited and this is something I have wanted for a long time but I am also terrified out of my mind. I know I can do it. I know I have the personality for it but what if they don't learn anything? What if it is just fun (I am really going to focus on reading fun because I feel that's a huge problem is students have been forced to read their whole life books they don't understand so it's not enjoyable...I will teach the joy of reading!) and not educational? What if I lead them terrible astray and their other professors or instructors say I'm telling them all the wrong thing?? BAH! I can't get too focused on the fears. Focus on the good.

So that's my big news. In other news the new freshmen are here. They arrived on Saturday and so far I love them! They are really outgoing and funny and seem really kind. Kindness is something that I saw all the time when I was a student but has been missing the past few years. I think this class is bringing it back which is super exciting.

Also I have almost all new RAs this year. Only 1 is a returner which made me nervous but so far it has been working out really well! They are so excited and willing to do whatever it takes and their hearts are really focused towards teamwork and seeking after Jesus. I am blessed whenever I am in their company. They are superb and I am excited to work with them!

I think the theme for this post is excited...

The Theme of My Life??

So yesterday I drove up to Maine because the summer camp I worked at for 7 summers of my life celebrated it's 50th year with a camp reunion.  I was excited to see people and walk around my old home away from home.  This was probably equally as life changing as ENC--in some ways even more so.  I'm not going to lie...and this is going to make me wicked cheesy but...when I drove into the town where it's located I started to cry a little.  Lame I know!  When I finally got to the camp I shut the car off and just took some deep breaths to calm my racing heart.  I felt like I had come home.  

The reunion was great, I walked all around camp remembering funny and sad things, talked to campers and wondered how I could have given that much energy all the time for 8 weeks every year, saw some ENCers who were working and caught up with old friends.  Everyone was married, most had kids and their first question for me was, "So are you seeing anyone?"  They all wondered why I wasn't married with children.  I'm the same age as all of them but apparently way behind the curve.  So I've been thinking about singles and marrieds for a few days now and here I am face to face with it.  I have been very fortunate to be blessed with married friends who know me and love me and I never feel judged or weird.  But when I run in to people I haven't seen in years it's almost uncomfortable to talk about my singleness.  Is it too late to rent a date for my college reunion?  Like in the Wedding Date?  Where does one even look for that??

Transition...

So for the longest time ever I used to blog on xanga but then that got old and blogger seems to be the new place to go so here I am. I have no idea what to do with my old blog now. There are some posts that I really really liked, do I copy and paste them here, do I save them to a disk--does anyone save to a disk anymore??? This is something I will have to ponder for a while.

In other news it's almost time for my fifth year college reunion and I am really working hard to make sure people come. It's been this weird mix of responses. Those with families are really gung ho for going. They are planning on it and even willing to help out. The people who are still single are much more apprehensive. I've even noticed the classmates with children are even more excited than the married couples who are just married.

I've talked with some of my single classmates and there is this feeling of what could I bring to the discussion. They feel as though they are not nearly as successful since they aren't married with children. These are people who have great and interesting jobs, traveled the world, gotten masters, working on ph.ds, and have just had amazing life experiences since leaving college but still they feel inadequate standing next to the family man or woman.

I graduated from a small, Christian college. I'm curious if this is something seen at larger or non Christian schools. And should I be nervous? Not only am I not married with children but I never even left the college. But I'm happy with my life and my experiences. I just need to keep repeating that I guess.